BANG!

Currently doing the shakespearean-helena-diary entry. I get abit disgusted as i write more and more and everntually goes out of point. (the whole diary entry is about how much “i” love demetrius and how i planned to get him back to “me”). i freaking love lit lessons now. All thanks to the fantastic shakespearean language. Was chatting with jolyne on msn using all the ancient shakespearean english.

Maths is irritating. Chi is nagging session. Eng is crap. SS is boring. chem is FUN! (hope this doesnt offend shuqing)

My birthday was kinda normal. I received tons of puzzles and magic stuffs.

eg : Shiying and qixuan gave me this puzzle locket thing.Its so diff. to solve. Like please, the difficulty is level 6. so, i went onlinto search for solutions  ( i can put SECRET msg inside and pass to another person to open. sound like a communication device in an ancient cult group) lol.

Excelsia gave me a pyramid puzzle, HAHAHA. I SOLVED IT WITHIN 5 MINS. but its fun ok, i put it next to my mona lisa puzzle. Its so sweet of her to know that i LOVE egypt can. LOL

Joan gave me this cube magic thing. Where a black cube can change into different small coloured cubes. Trying to modify the trick to make it looks more professional. LOL

Receive a wallet from bro and shermy! HAHAHA. they totally saved me from my pink-purple-disgusting wallet which i am too embarrassed to bring it out. (the pinky designs on my wallet make me feel like puking anyway. i am serious!)

Fiona gave me this mega big photo frame that ROCKS? hahaha. i mean the photo frame rocks on a flat surface. LOL. She wrapped until so nice can. Some more used safety pins to secure the bag. Now i can use those safety pins to irritate rosie! HAHAHA.

AND JOLYNN’S CUPCAKES! lol. Those cupcakes are fabulous lah. (although the toppings is pink). Sad that i can only ate two due to my throat. Then 2 days after my birthday jolynn gave out chocolate cupcakes can!!!!! i missed it cause i went washroom. Then stupid excelsa was savouring her cupcakes while i was staring like some vulture at the back.

Tha paint set that XH gave was totally at the right time! Cause my current paint set is going dry and empty soon. Shall use it for the UOB painting!

Crystal is still as wonderful as ever as a sister in christ yea? She gave me a  christian pink book about “girlfriends” . hahaha.

Thanks for all the letters. Sorry if i didnt mention ur name. My brain memory space is all used up for chem (due to ytd’s test).

Talking about art, i think i am going to die soon. I’m still left with 5 art pieces to complete this week in school. And since fri i couldnt get anyone to go collect my artpieces, i couldnt work on them. Meaning, i didnt not submit my artpieces= bad grades.

Feel like making a powerpoint on my artpieces (like what that student helper did).

Hopefull i get that job.

full of vexation of thy scornful homework, here i come, complaint against the logarithms and never ending calculations.

moved!

Still using wordpress though! haha.

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This is totally sickening.
Had a traumatizing day in school.
Had a terrible year.
Felt like a failure.
Tried so hard. But nothing was successful.
Cca had problems.
Studies had problems.
Results had problems.
IP failed.
Didn’t get the subject combi i wanted.
Major quarrels with parents.
I could only share my problems with two person.

I thought everything was planned by God.
And, its true.
God planned it himself.
Now i know why i became such a loser this year.
I regretted.
But, i nv regret on how much efforts i put into my studies.
I tried hard.
But he just put it this way for me.
People asked why i couldn’t get in when everything was so obvious.
I don’t know why.
Its ridiculous.
It happened last year.
It happened again.
Why do you take away my chances again and again?

Band was another boring shit session. Went wandering around in school. Ended up in prayer room. I dreamt of the prayer room a few days ago. I was thinking of where to wander about during band before i slept. And, i thought of the prayer room. Then, my mind zoomed in to the interior of the prayer room. The drawings on the wall and blah blah (what you see in prayer room). Then, my mind focused on this small door found in the prayer room. I was suddenly very frighten. Like i could feel a presence when i saw the door. I did not dare to get near the door. I did not dare to stay aloe in the prayer room anymore. Then, everything became blur and i woke up. It was not even daylight. And, i spent time thinking if i should go prayer room.

Weird. I went today. I on half the lights in the prayer room. And, i sat there and stone alone. Continue drawing for a while and i stared at the little door in the prayer room. The door was ajar. I don’t know what happened to me that i went over to the door. I opened it. I felt so peaceful and calm. Not afraid of anything. I on the lights in that little room. And, i started looking through the drawings in the room. Then, i moved like a normad to viewing gallery cause that uncle person came to lock the prayer room.

Stoned and observed the school compound on the viewing gallery. Sitting as still as a statue. Then continued drawing. Phew. I felt much better after drawing. I realised i had a nice time stoning.

It still seems a bit unreal.

I don’t feel good. I am afraid of tomorrow.

After hearing SOMETHING from pearlyn, i feel so sick that i don’t wanna go school.

Shit. i hate to face the truth that sec3 gonna start and we have to choose our subject combination. I am so fedup over it the pass few weeks or months. I asked God if i should take art as an ‘o’ level subject. He answered. But i am still afraid. I still doubt. I am not prepared to take on this so-called-not-”normal”-to-me subject.

One faithful day, xh suddenly smsed me about this article that she came across about this artist being regret of not taking art earlier because he thought it was something not useful, unable to have stable income. I asked God for a second sign to tell me if thats the plan he had for me.

The next day, xh passed the newspaper article to me through Joan. She placed a letter inside. I read the letter. Now, i start doubting again and i asked God for a third sign.

SERIOUSLY, WHY SHOULD I DOUBT!!!!

Day 1.

Play games. Get to know JIE JIE. Played double whacko and stupid yvette had slow reaction. LOL.
Played this maze thingy on chairs. OMGosh. I felt so giddy when i tried balancing on chairs blindfold. Wt calimed that i touched somebody’s butt and pat on somebody’s head. Stupid wt kept caling me to go infront. Didn’t even tell me there were steps infront. I almost fell down and she laughed like mad woman! LOL! So, i had my super SWEET revenge when it was my turn to lead her. I was like pulling her with so much force. Then i was like cutting the queue of all people infront. ” Eh, sorry arh. we walking infront. Sorry arh, we cutting queue. Hope you don’t mind!” . Hahah! Then we reached the stairs and i kept calling wt to walk infront. Then she thougth i lied to her and not willing to move infront (she wasn’t even close to the stairs). Then another came and the one leading said ” eh, be careful, theres stairs! “. Then wt was screaming and unwilling to move and accused em of lying. HAHAHA. FREAKED HER OUT! The night time was super tiring. All of them were camwhoring while i felt like sleeping after one photo. The nigth trail wasn’t scary at all i think?

Day 2.

Went LIBRARY with lorraine. haha. She introduced me this elastic sweets thingy. It tasted abit like rubber. haha! Took many stupid pictures. The JIE JIE at the library introduced us to cool things in the library. I cannot believe they actually have this place to keep those super rare books. The oldest ones were produced far before raffles came.  All the books are kept in this room with no lights at all lah. Readers are also request to put on gloves when reading. bleh. We were not allowed to get into those rooms. ONLY TOP 5 MEMBERS OF LIBRARY ARE ALLOWED TO GO IN. cool huh? Totally pigged out at the library. Kept eating unhealthy snacks. Went to see the tan kah kee exhibition also  and RECEIVED A FREE GOODIE BAG! haha. sound so cheapskate.

Went back school to make this weird tiny small dumplings stuffed with peanuts and sugar. Lorraine and i were doing the yoga moves on the bench while learning how to make the puffs. I was pulling the dough and stretching it (like lorraine’s face) with so much violence. And lydia found so much joy in doing so. haha. totally crapped while making the small puffs. I shared this super big puff with lorraine. Lydia kept making heart shape ones. She called me to help her fill the heart shape puff with sugar and peanuts. I took a spoonful and she said i very stingy. In the end i poured the peanuts all over and she complained too full. Fussy woman. Had a fun time making those puffs. Then, one of the dough dried up and we added large amount of water. In the end the whole thing so sticky. We poured all the peanuts and sugar on the table and rolled the dough over and over again. So gross. haha. After it was cooked, it was terrible. haha.

Spent time gossiping about all the past horror stories of our school. Had this talk by a JIE JIE. Everybody was sleep ok. haha. Dinner was buffet! Lydia called me not to take the toufu. In the end she took a second serving. Like alot can? haha.  CLARISSA WENT HOME. bleh. Took many stupid pix while dinner. Scroll down for pictures. Omg. Tjong’s expressions all standard one loh. haha.

During the night, watched Big Fat Liar after our singing session. Played this poker card game also and i couldn’t stop myself from screaming! Eventually, tjong and lorraine fell asleep. Me, lydia and wt sneaked out and sat at the specs stand. Whole school only the three of us AWAKE! Then stupid lydia tried to scare us by saying that she saw a pair of legs behind her. It was so dark and quiet can. Went back and we had a super hard time finding our sleeping bags. We had to squat on the floor and touched around for our sleeping bags. When i turned around, i didn’t even see wt around. Then when i turned around a second time, she was like standing right behind me. Like pontianak.

Friendship bands by Me and Lorraine!

Angelique looking retarded with the elastic sweet thingy.

Our new classroom!

Lorraine being innocently amused of her new classroom

Our olden days...

We killing all the GREAT people of Singapore

Summoning aliens to aid us in killing the tan kah kee

Lorraine waiting emo-ly for her aliens to come...

Instead of aliens, came two scary ji ko bei in a pearl of a shell!

Year 1942- People reading prayer as Japanese bombed to Singapore (adapted from wt)

Unfortunately, these two girls were caught...

Because girl 1 accidentally casted her seducing eyes on one of the japanese.Instead, she was caught .

And girl 2 tried to save girl 1

Lydia roared as she heard the two girls' screams. Le tian was crying for them!

Hence, Nun Le tian had to pray for those poor people.

Especially this girl that became mentally disabled after the bomb landed on her. Sigh...

Girl 1 tried to escape by using float.

The japanese living in the pearl knew about it and very furious!

Kia Si Lydia trying to sweet talk the japanese. Hoping they would spare her live.

All thanks to Clever Diana who suggested to invite the mighty big foot giant to step the japanese to their graves!

Big foot giant invited!

The mighty giant used a collection of shoes to attack the japanese!

Two girls sitting infront saved! HAPPY ENDING! Don't know what happened to the mentally disabled girl.

 Day 3 :Had this mass dance in the morning. Then some presentation thing and home sweet home! But Lorraine, wt and i went amk hub and took neoprints. They sponsored me! We were sitting on the stairs cutting then this stupid 40 + years old man was like ” 你们还不要回家吗?” MAKE US SOUND LIKE SOME BITCHES SITTING THERE AND CAMP LIKE THAT. LIEK SOME PROSTITUES. So, i went like “We don’t need some strangers to tell us what to do” and glared back. Tsk. Ridiculous! Went hoem with Lorraine and saw this poster with picture of a woman that looks like ms chan.

Wt and i in the middle of the night

Gone mad.

Wt said i looked cool in this pix?!

The mirror

Omg. we all looked like Ah lianzxzxzxz!

Mirror Again!

Tjong always show the same face. hahaha.

CLIQUEight with mrs cheung! lol. Lydia and Qiaoer looked like over grown kids. hahaha. no offence (:

I fell asleep half way watching drama alone. Too tired i guess. And, i think i increased the volume to the point that it was hypnotising me. So, i slept for one hour and now i don’t feel like sleeping anymore. Stupid wong ru ping. Said that want to chat in the end she fell asleep.

I guess i will post about the camp tomorrow. haha. LAZYYY.

I remember my mom bought this CD called ETERNITY. With all the people singing away in high pitch choir-ish way (sounds like angel’s voice). I suddenly pick out that CD and played. I realised SECRET GARDEN plays nice song/tune.

I LOVE THIS : SONGS FROM A SECRET GARDEN.

It makes my heart sink whenever i listen to it. haha. I listen to it immediately the moment i get angry or irritated.

that song gives me inspirations.

I think after the “she’s too young” show, everybody’s talking about SYPHILIS.
tsk.
Came back from camp. Have tons of pix man. Too lazy to post now though. Maybe tonight?
Alana said i looked super scary during band on thurs. I was staring with those full-of-hatred eyes. HAHAHA.

The clock hung firmly on the wall.
Grabbing every attention of impatient people.
I sat right below it.
I did not suspect anything.
Did not suspect that the stares were not on the clock.
Time was passing so slowly.
All i could do was to look back at the stares.
And, i caught that pair of eyes.
I could not see the thoughts and spirits through them.
They were still, staring at my direction, but lost in wonders.
I tried to concentrate, i tried to see through
The eyes just froze. Caught off guard.
And i realised, the stare was piercing straight into my eyes.
Everything was blur. I blinked.
For a split second. I was registering the most beautiful eyes i had ever seen.
But, when i turned and looked again.
I did not see the same pair of eyes anymore.
They were on the clock.
Was that my hallucination?

Got this from lorraine’s blog. I think its superb!

You may think i am lame. Here it goes :

Tomorrow’s the freaking alumni camp. I hope i can have fun. dang wo men tong zai yi qi da biannn

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Added in by me :

Dang wo men tong zai yi qi to stuff our da bian into our DUMPLINGS.

Mood getting better. No point whining and brooding over marks anyway.

Had translation lesson today. HAHA. I love this the best :

China’s way of translation-黄蟹饺子 : Dumplings stuffed with ovary and digestive glands in a crab.

omgosh. Thats the worse translation i have ever seen. haha. Not even those found in lorraine’s chi-glish book. Sexuality talk was boring. With gurong bragging about her daughter again and again. Like she is a saint. I wonder why she has to talk about her daughter for almost every single thing. Like no big deal right?

Band was killer. I was sitting in a direction with no obstruction that faced patrick. Hence, it was impossible for me to read my book to spend that 3 hours. So, i spent my torturous 3 hours STARING INTO SPACE. Dang, it was terrible, and the clock seemed to stop functioning.

Something happened after shiying came back from the session with teddy (involving 2 unknown snrs) :

1. snrs saw shiying playing ( she looked like barbie ) and laughed.
2. I saw snrs laughing and how shiying looked. So, i laughed too.
3. Shiying saw all of us laughing and she started laughing ( she couldn’t play at all ).
4. Snr saw shiying laughing and end up lying on another snr’s shoulder, dying of laughter.
5. Shiying and i saw and laughed like mad.

Gonna go for camp tomorrow. Haven’t started packing my bag. I can’t believe we actually have to make what dumplings during camp. Unbelievable. Make me lose interest in the activities.

On a random note, I realised i love the sound of rain dripping off onto the ground. I love the sound of water flowing. haha.

why did you freeze?
When i turned
And saw what you did.
Why did you blush?
When glancing at the clock above me.